Zombie Mom.

I get a lot of comments like, "Isn't being a mom the BEST?!" I always want to respond, "Sure, when the sun's up." Come nighttime I'm perfectly ok with the idea of letting a pack of wolves or gorillas raise my kids." I actually talked to Ross about the idea one night. Hey, Tarzan turned out ok, right?

Aoife was six weeks early. Not a huge deal, but she was in the NICU for two weeks. At first it was hard. I cried a lot. I felt guilty. And I was torn between my life at home and my daughter in the hospital. After the first week, I loved having Aoife in the hospital. I was still a little sad, but I was able to get two extra weeks of glorious sleep and had some quality time with Claire. She was able to take the big sister transition slowly and I think that was great for her The first week after Aoife was home was better than expected. She woke only a couple times to feed and would go right back to sleep. And she never cried. I mean never. Then she got sick.

She's had a few minor developmental issues. Nothing serious, but still things to deal with. I thought it'd be kind of fun to have a premie. The thought of keeping my baby tiny a little while longer than most was wonderful. I quickly learned the extra cute factor of a tiny baby isn't worth the minor issues of having a premie.

Aoife will be three months old on the fourth. By the time Claire was three months, she was sleeping a sound thirteen hours through the night. Last night, Aoife got up five times. Needless to say, I'm going a little crazy over here. I find myself counting down to 5:00 when Ross is usually done with work. I live for Saturdays and sometimes Sundays where Ross so lovingly gets up with the girls in the morning so I can sleep a few extra hours.

I love my girls and I love being a mom, but I am anxiously awaiting the day when Aoife can sleep more than a couple hours a night, Claire doesn't fall out of the bed or drop her lamb on the floor, and I can feel like a real person who has interests and a life outside of the mom pants rather than just a zombie mom with dirty floors and a sink full of dishes.