I had a really hard time adjusting the first few months. There were times I cried, saw the toilet as an escape for a little "me" time, and occasionally wondered what the heck I had gotten myself into. And honestly, it's been the best time of my life.
Our journey with Claire started out with jaundice and a few days in a bed of lights. She could only come out to be fed or changed. It was hard having a newborn baby, MY newborn baby, and I couldn't even hold her when I wanted to. Little did I know that would be the beginning of the Claire Adventures. There were months of sleepless nights, an emergency run to the hospital for RSV, plagiocephaly, torticollis, physical therapy, helmets, and the list I'm sure will go on and on and on.
Through all of this, I've reflected on the women I look up to most. They are beautiful, strong, courageous, and such incredible examples for me. I had to learn the hard way that these women are not that way because they are "butch", but because of and through Christ. Our church is chalk full of these strong women, and for that I am grateful. I hope to one day be numbered among them.
Bragging moment: I've been really great at keeping a journal this past month. Sunday I went back and read a little and I already feel silly for all of my whining and complaining about how hard being a mom is. (Not that my journal exclusively contains my whining.) Ross has always told me happiness is a choice. -Have I mentioned how much I absolutely detest that he is ALWAYS right. About everything?!
Whenever I text him and tell him what a horrid day I'm having, he always responds simply, "Well, that's your choice." Sometimes I feel like he might as well be my parent, too. It takes me back to Mr. Bennet's 8th grade English class. He made a poster of his mantra which read: Buck up little trooper, cause life ain't easy. He posted at the front of the class on bright colored paper. I'm beginning to figure out that happiness IS a choice and I can make the best of the worst situations.
Claire and I have our helmets on (haha, get it?) and are ready for whatever's next. Bring it!
So i never blog on my own blog exept for my first time when i had boston and haven't since..but i came across your blog and had to comment! ha Im glad you feel the exact same way i do! The toilet is my getaway too! haha this mom business is overwhelming everyday seems there is always something new that comes up that makes me frustrated. But life is what we make it and in every situation we learn and grow. We really do determine our happiness. It is a choice. I have heard my mom say "Its your choice to be mad,angry or happy." And now i have my mom living right with me it feels like..CASEY. He ALWAYS is right and sounds like my mom and the advice she would give..sometimes annoying sometimes good.But he is always positive and he makes the best of evety situation..so slowly we can also be more positive and make the choice now to be happy no matter what happens..just laugh it off!
ReplyDeleteopps i accidently wrote that from Casey's google account
ReplyDeleteMy mom (Grandma J) always says boredom is a choice. Ross's reply made me think about that haha
ReplyDeletehahaha when we said we were bored, my parents would hand us a list of chores. We learned to not say that anymore.
ReplyDeleteKami, why aren't we hang out friends?? I leave tomorrow for Oregon, but lets do something when I get back. We've been wanting to have you guys over, too!
Yes yes.. I do in fact need mom buddies :) I leave this week to go to Texas for 2 weeks then a week later we are leaving to go to Cali for another week.. Pretty much means we wil be gone all July haha but we shall when we both return.. Seems like we have lots in common :)
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